Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Word Filled Wednesday/Thankful Journal Day 5

And to stand every morning to thank and praise the Lord
Chronicles 23:30 

We are supposed to give thanks to the Lord, regardless of circumstances. In times when things are good, that is oh so easy, but sometimes, when things take a turn for the worse, it gets a little difficult to find things to be thankful for. It's a time when we need to hunker down and really evaluate all we have and all we are blessed with. Despite circumstances, we need to stand every morning and thank the Lord. Surely we can find five things to be thankful for, even on the most difficult days?
1. I am thankful for the air in my lungs!
2. I am thankful for strong legs that function the way they should!
3. I am thankful for the oatmeal that I had for breakfast!
4. I am thankful for the lessons I learn through the trials I face every single day!
5. I am thankful for the gift of salvation from the Lord God Almighty! AMEN!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Thankful Journal: Day 4

Since it's my baby boy's 3rd birthday today, I'm going to do something a little bit different. This thankful journal entry is going to be all about him!
June 29, 2007, 1:08 PM, 9 lbs 5 oz. Don't ask me how long he was because I don't remember. 
Jacek was my biggest baby at 9.5, but he was also my only breech baby, and Lord knows I felt it. I felt like I was going to break, and well, pregnancy was interesting because he used my bladder to shadowbox apparently. It's funny because I don't usually put much stock in to astrology signs or anything, but he is definitely a Cancer to a 'T'...
Anywho, Jacek has always been my big boy. Not so much tall, but he's short, stocky, and as my grandpa (from whom he got his middle name) and my mom would say, "built like a brick sh*thouse". He's sensitive. VERY sensitive. He's tough too, though; it's quite an interesting thing-physically tough, emotionally sensitive. So, I've enjoyed him very much as he still needs "mommy" cuddles every day, sometimes quite a bit. 
Jacek sure does give me a run for my money, though. The boy is sneaky, as in ninja sneaky. I could be sitting somewhere and he can come right up in front of me, take something, and then 5 minutes later I'm looking around going "where in the heck did that go". Jacek also enjoys climbing door jambs, climbing up the shelves in the pantry, and trying to ride our poor dog Mia like a horse. He has virtually no fear, so he won't be getting his drivers license until he's 25 if I have my way! The boy turned a canopy to a barbie bed in to a skateboard the other day, so his first car will be a vespa, or a Volkswagen bug, or aha, a motorized lounge chair...that's more like it. 

Today I am thankful for:
1. The tough little boy that really is just a big teddy bear!
2. The persistent little boy who never gives up on a challenge!
3. The loving little boy who LOVES to give hugs and kiss booboos!
4. The talented little boy who has a natural knack for sports!
5. The smart little boy who can figure out just about anything!

Jacey bear, it's always a pleasure being your mom!
Monday, June 28, 2010

Thankful Journal: Day 3

Today, I have a heavy burden...I have to write an outline for a paper that I have no idea how to do. The question is vague and I have a very hard time with broad or vague prompts when writing an essay. Give me a set topic that's boom boom boom and I'll research the bejeezus out of it and write one heck of a paper, but you give me these vague assignments and it's like I'm trying to build a rocket. I don't get it. 
This isn't the first time this has happened. I have had many a vague topic, be it discussion posts (aw crud, I have to do four responses today...darn it!) or papers. Somehow, I always manage to get through it. In the 2 years I've been going to college, there was only one paper that I was not able to write, but imagine my surprise when there was only ONE person in that class of 20+ students who wrote it because the rest were as lost as me.
As I said, I've always been able to manage up some sort of paper, and I've always aced it. Maybe it's my incredible ability to work under pressure (which can get me in trouble with procrastination), but I also think that this is something of a God thing! He gives me that burst of energy, committment, and strength to go ahead and do what I need to do. He always gets me through it. 

1. I am thankful that God is blessing my school career!
2. I am glad that God has given me such great strength to persevere even when it seems impossible!
3. I am thankful for my researching abilities!
4. I am thankful for a family who, for the most part, understands that "mommy has homework" 
5. I am thankful for the gift of salvation from our Lord God Almighty!

And keep the charge of the Lord thy God, to walk in his ways, to keep his statutes, and his commandments, and his judgments, and his testimonies, as it is written in the law of Moses, that thou mayest prosper in all that thou doest, and whithersoever thou turnest thyself:

1 Kings 2:3 

Friday, June 25, 2010

Thankful Journal: Day 2

Okay, so here I am on day 2 of my lovely thankful journal, and I have to admit I'm not particularly in the thankful spirit. Kids awake at 4 AM, then wake up Hannah, have a hard time getting back to sleep. Finally manage to get some sleep and Brandon wakes me up at 6:45, I get heartburn from my oatmeal, the kids have *destroyed* a house that was cleaned yesterday in anticipation for my mom's arrival today. I can't even get 15 minutes to shower and dress without having someone screaming at me or bugging me. And where the heck did my nail clippers go?
So, needless to say, I am not in a thankful spirit. Nonetheless, the Lord commands that we need to have a spirit of thanksgiving:
Offer unto God thanksgiving; and pay thy vows unto the most High:

Psalms 50:14 
Cue the whiny child voice..."BUT I DON'T WANNA BE THANKFUL!" On a morning such as this, what do I have to be thankful for?
1. I am thankful for the chaos, because there is some lonely person out there in a quiet house wishing they had what I have.
2. I am thankful for the crazy kids that God has blessed me with, because they keep me on my toes.
3. I am thankful that God has taught me to deal with the kids in a meek and patient manner (most of the time).
4. I am thankful that I even HAVE kids to drive me crazy. Once again, someone out there has spent tens of thousands of dollars and multiple medical treatments to even
5. I am thankful for the gift of salvation from the Lord God Almighty! AMEN!

Come to think of it, I do have things to be thankful for today. Despite the craziness that this morning has been, I am commanded to
Seek the Lord and his strength, seek his face continually.

1 Chronicles 16:11 
Hm, that's just what I plan to do today while I deal with hurricane Lickfold boys and constantly follow Hannah around as she scoots about trying to put every teeny, tiny little object in her mouth. How she even sees some of this stuff is beyond me.
Have a blessed and thankful day everyone!
Thursday, June 24, 2010

Thankful Journal

Today's Proverbs 31 email hit especially hard; perhaps it was the goings-on of yesterday that make today's post about thanksgiving strike my core. I'll get to the story in a bit, but first I want to explain what the "mission" stated in the Proverbs 31 email was:  

"Start a thankful journal where you daily list five things each day for which you are thankful. Do this for the next 30 days and see how much more peaceful your mindset about life becomes."

Okay, well I think I can handle this. And I truly believe that this is something that our Heavenly Father KNOWS that I need right now! So, I'm game :) And, I'm starting today!
First off, the reason I think this strikes such a chord today is because I had the pleasure (if that is the right word) of meeting my nephew and niece for the first time yesterday. The catch is that they had passed away before I even met my husband. Proverbs 31's email has two reflections listed:

What makes you grumpy and steals your propensity to be thankful?

Think of someone in your sphere of influence who is really thankful. Despite the circumstances they face, are they more peaceful? How does this inspire you? 

So when I was reading through them, I immediately thought of someone: my SIL Angie. Sure we have our issues, but she truly embodies the spirit of Thanksgiving that the Lord wants us to have.
Angie is mommy to beautiful Jason and sweet little Tana. Jason was born in 1997 and died when he was a few months old. He was born at 23 (?) weeks gestation because she had an incompetent cervix. No doubt the birth was a traumatic experience; no one expects their babe to come so early, but she pressed on anyway. She even got to take him home. Sadly when he was just months old, the Lord was calling him home. She was not a believer at that time, but she felt compelled to get on her knees and pray to God for one thing, and one thing only: that her parents would meet their first grandchild while he was still alive. Well, ask and ye shall receive; it wasn't long after my mother and father in law met Jason that he passed away. 
Five years later, Angie got pregnant again. Knowing her medical condition, precautions were taken (cerclage and bedrest) to keep her pregnant as long as possible. Lo and behold, testing showed that they were to be blessed with an extra special gift, a down syndrome baby. This was a complete miracle-there was no family history of any such disorder. Ever. Truly the Lord's work. Now I cannot speak for Angie's personal struggle, but I do know that Tana was very much loved and cherished by everyone in this family. Tana was born with heart problems, as down syndrome babies often are, and she passed away when she was only one month old. The only person in my family who met her was my mother-in-law, but that doesn't stop me from crying whenever I think of her or see a picture of that baby girl. To think of the impact that someone could have in only four short weeks of life...

Yesterday was the first time my husband had the strength to take me to the cemetery. After nearly 6 1/2 years of being together, I finally met my niece and nephew...what a glorious moment that was :) 

When the email suggested I reflect on someone who embodies thanksgiving, no one comes to mind like Angie. She has lost two beautiful children and experienced a number of other crises in her life, yet she never loses her love or her fire for the Lord. She is thankful for every single day that she has, and she is thankful for every day that the Lord blessed her with those babies. I get goosebumps thinking of the strength that this woman has-and no, I do not believe she has ANY idea how highly I regard her or how great I think she is. Her struggles and the strength and love that has resulted from them is something that the Lord has blessed her with. Now, as sad a story as this is, I should say that in January of 2008, she and her husband had a beautiful, healthy baby boy. Yes, once again, a little over 5 years after Tana! Here's to hoping that we don't have to wait another 5 years for another babe to join them!

Now...for my list of five things I'm thankful for:
1. The strong arms of a loving, understanding, and forgiving husband who works his butt off to support us!
2. Healthy, happy children whom I love with every ounce of my being!
3. Food in my refrigerator and a roof over my head!
4. The ability to go to school and get my degree!
5. The gift of salvation from the Lord God Almighty! AMEN!

Are there things that rob me of my thanksgiving? YES! The first one that comes to mind is *jealousy*! Gosh, who didn't see that one coming? When my eyes turn green, I completely lose sight of what I *do* have; what I have is junk compared to so-and-so down the street. It doesn't matter if I'm thinking of family life, material goods, or even faith...jealousy can strike in any area of our lives. But, the Lord calls us to be happy with what we have, to be content. Contentment is something that I really believe we all have to learn, but with prayer, positive thinking, and literally putting blinders on, we can have the gift of being content with what we have!

In memory of Jason Lane and Tana Leigh: "An Angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth. And whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth."~Author Unknown

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